When the first period after marriage is missing. I do a pregnancy test a few days later. And when the pregnancy test is positive. Then you brought the first happy moment. Your father took me to the hotel that day and filled my stomach with sweets and heard that you are coming in my womb. Since then, your father used to take care of me a lot. Because you have to bring me into this world. Your father used to caress me so that you would not be harmed. At first I felt very bad and could not eat anything. I have vomited everything. I have been suffering from stomach ache since I was about 6 months old. But everyone in our family is very happy. That my first child will come to this world in a few days. I could understand your position in my stomach. Your father used to call you with his ears on my stomach and you would move then. And your father would be very happy and would tell me that you have seen my child listen to me so early in the morning. Sometimes you kicked me in the stomach, I was in a lot of pain. But I thought this pain was a little to bring you into this world. In this way, after about 10 months, one day there was a severe labor pain. So much pain that I can't stand it. I screamed a lot but the people of the village said that this pain is nothing to give birth to a child. But I felt like I was dying of poison. That pain was so excruciating that I fainted. Thus even after about 2-3 hours when the baby was not delivered. He immediately took me to the hospital.
Dr. I have to have a caesarean section. Your father told Dr. K to save my wife and child no matter how much money it costs. I was afraid of the injection needle. But I had no fear of bringing you into this world that day. Caesar took me to the room. It was scary to see there were so many types of scissors and blades. But it seemed to you that even if I died, you would come to this world well. About 2 hours later I regained consciousness. Then I tell everyone where my child is. I go crazy to see you.
After a while I saw your face as if all my pain and suffering was gone. After seeing you I felt like I was the only happy person in the world. There is no one as happy as me. I brought you home from the hospital. Your father feeds everyone in our area sweets. I couldn't walk for a few days. Even Dr. forbade me to do heavy work. You were small. I used to urinate in bed and clean the toilet. I didn't sleep well until I was 3 years old. I would wake up after a while. I would not sleep when you were sick. I used to walk around with you on my lap all night. One day at exactly 12 o'clock at night, your stomach suddenly swells. Your father and I took you to the hospital that night. Your father and I did not sleep that night. When Eid came, we would buy you a lot of things for Eid. Once I gave you only 1 T-shirt, we were very upset about it. I can't give you anything else. This is how our life was going. In the meanwhile your little sister came to this world. Meanwhile you also grew up. Your sister also grew up slowly. The day you became a well-known businessman. I can't explain to you how happy I felt that day. You're my son so proud. You gave your sister's marriage very well. I married you very well. You were doing well. After the sudden death of your father, I became a burden to you, father. I am old now so I can't do much. So I can't stay with you. Am I not worthy to be with you and your wife? Today you have made a name for yourself all over the country, how many new relatives you have, how many slaves you have nurtured, how many people you have given place in your house. Only my place is in this old age home. This old woman's place is not in that big building of yours. Why did you leave me in this old age home? I can't live without seeing you. I didn't put you anywhere when you hurt me. Instead, I kept you wrapped around my chest so that you wouldn't suffer. Then why did you keep me behind you. You may not understand that this old woman's mind wants to play with her grandchildren. You don't understand my mind, father. But I think my son is fine without me. Whether it is good or not. Because if you are good, I am very happy. But sometimes you meet me. If you are happy that your mother and father are happy. But listen, father. I pray you will grow up. And don't let your sons and daughters do this to you. Otherwise you will not be able to bear the pain of the old age home. And if you are in trouble, I will be in trouble even if my father dies. And when I die, it is as if you have to give me soil, even if it is for my father. And I tell my wife to be good, to always love you. Because if my mother-in-law understands my inner story that day. But I love you, don't think about me, if you are good, you will understand that I am good.
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(I couldn't understand the plight of a mother in an old age home and couldn't see her child. But the diary in which she wrote these words. Then that diary may not have been able to hold back tears)
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O children, before putting the parents in the old age home
Leave the price of mother's milk.