#Category_sad_ending

My girlfriend Nandita and I have been standing at the bus stop for half an hour. However, there is no name for the bus. Nandita is getting very upset. Muttering to the bus driver, he is rescuing his gang. But I have no eyebrows. My curious eyes were looking for someone here and there. And just then I saw the boy standing next to the tea stall. That Rose comes here every day, after my college holidays. And he looked at me sideways. Seeing the boy, a smile appeared on my lips. I don't know why. Nandita followed my vision and said,
- Tell me what's the matter? Why is that boy looking at you again and again?
I pretended not to understand,
- Which boy?
Nandita looked at me suspiciously and said,
- Do you think I'm stupid? I know that boy stands here for you every day. Isn't that right?
It is difficult to fool Nandita's eyes. So I nodded and said,
-Hmm.
Nandita smiled, lightly pushed my arm and said,
-What beautiful, drowning water is being eaten?
I was embarrassed and said,
-Yeah, don't say that. But not as you think. The boy stands here every day. And looks at me sideways. I just enjoy that. Nothing more than that.
Nandita looked at me with quite surprised eyes. The bus had already left, so we went to get on the bus without further ado. Just then someone called out,
- Terrible?
I looked back in shock and saw the boy. Seeing me turn around, suddenly the boy handed me a blue envelope. Surprisingly, I had no sense then. I stared at the boy in fascination. And I was thinking, is it so beautiful to understand someone's voice? Nandita chased me and said,
-Viva, hurry up. The bus will leave immediately.
I still stood still. Nandita chased me again and said,
- Viva, take the envelope. It's getting late.
At that moment the words of happiness entered my ears. I reached out and got on the bus in an instant with the envelope. I was very much wishing, once I look back, is the boy still looking for my drink?
After returning home, I rushed to my room and somehow closed the door. My chest was shaking. Fear, excitement, I was sweating and lonely. What is inside this blue envelope held in the palm of your hand? Love letter? That is what Nandita was saying. And was very insistent to see. But I was shy.
Carefully fold a white sheet of paper inside the envelope. I opened the fold and saw ___ written on it.
"Vibhavari,
See you everyday And I keep hundreds of feelings for you in my chest. Do you know the name of this feeling? The name of this feeling is love. Will you respond to the call of my stored feelings? Will Vibhavari respond?
Iti
Awaiting your reply
That boy
After reading the letter, my whole body started trembling. At that time I heard my mother's voice.
- Viva, what's in your hand?
I was shocked. My throat went dry at my mother's question. I immediately hid the letter from my mother's eyes and said in a low voice,
- No, nothing.
My mother looked at me like a detective for a while and said,
- Why are you sitting behind closed doors without freshening up from college? Comes to eat fresh soon. When I put food on the table!
Mother left. I almost left half alive.
I could not sleep all night. Half asleep, half awake, I started thinking only about that boy.
The next morning, when I woke up, it was twenty minutes past nine. I got up and sat on the bed. It's been so long. But why no one called me? How do I go to college now? As soon as she left the house, her mother said,
- Viva, you don't have to go to college today. Which you take fresh. If you can, take a bath too. And I will wear a dress that looks good.
I did not understand anything about my mother. All went over my head. I said,
-Mom, why don't I go to college today? And what are you saying? You mean, like, saltines and their ilk, eh?
- Do what I say. I can't answer so many of your questions now. I will know everything in time.
My mind began to whisper. Unable to go to college, I began to fidget in instability.
By eleven o'clock I found out that the potter was coming to see me. My restlessness increased further. I don't know what to do. In the meanwhile the potter came and appeared. Moments later, despite my reluctance, I was brought before the potter. In the blink of an eye, everything seemed to change.
The recipient liked me. And today they want to get married and return home with their wives. My father agreed to their offer. Dad is a very angry and stubborn person. No one in the house can go against his opinion. Not even Mao. Still, I begged my mother,
-Mom, you tell Dad once, I don't want to get married now. Please! Tell Dad once.
My mother did not listen to me and said,
- When you were born a girl. Then you have to get married. Be it a little earlier or later. And you're talking to your father? You know how your father is. He is adamant in his decision. So you don't disturb by agreeing anymore. We have seen the news before. The boy is very good. He works in Dhaka. You see, you will be very happy.
I broke down and cried. No one understood my mind. What a feeling inside me seemed empty. What should I do? What should I do now? Run away? But where to go? Moreover, what will be the honor of the father if he escapes?
Slowly I went to my room, took the letter hidden in the fold of the book in my hand and tore it through the window. Feelings hidden in my mind I bury forever in my mind, the fulfillment of family I finally agreed. I comforted my mind by thinking that all the desires in human life are never fulfilled.
That night I got married. My mother hugged me and cried. My insides were empty then. I tried but could not get a drop of water in my eyes.
On the first night of the wedding my husband told me,
-Listen, you have to obey what my parents say in this house. Remember this very well. Never disrespect them.
I realized that my husband was a very devoted and obedient son to his parents. I obeyed him. Forgetting my past feelings I started thinking about him. What he likes, what he doesn't like, I got used to it. But at the end of the day, even though he was by my side, I stayed with him. I could not reach his mind. I was surrounded by loneliness.
My husband is a very serious person. She never smiles and talks to me. On the contrary, when he sees me smiling, he says, 'Why are you smiling like this? No one likes these laughter in this house. ' Listening to him, my smile would disappear like camphor. And maybe no one will ever hear my laughter again.
My husband has to stay in Dhaka for work. Occasionally comes on vacation. But coming on his vacation can’t take away my loneliness. I don't sleep most of the night. Because, sleep does not want to come. If I ever fall asleep, I suddenly wake up in the middle of the night. Then I opened the window and looked at the sky. And I look at my sleeping husband's face and say to myself, 'Does anyone sleep like this on a moonlit night?' If I wake him up and say,
- Let's not go to the roof.
He said annoyed
-What will happen to the roof at night? Strange conversation. Sleep now.
I can't explain to him anything about my loneliness.
One day I told him,
- I feel very lonely here. Can't I go to Dhaka with you?
He frowned at my words and said,
- What's the point of being alone? You don't stay here alone. There is mother, there is father.
All I wanted was to give in to his argument.
A few months later, my older brother came to my father-in-law's house for the first time. He was abroad at the time of marriage. Maybe my life would not have been like that. How many years later I saw him. Tears came to my eyes with joy. He put his hand on my head and said,
- How are you Viva?
I sobbed and cried. The brother comforted me and said,
- This madman, why are you crying?
I said arrogantly,
Remember me after so long? You have forgotten me.
The brother laughed and said,
-If I forgot, why did I come to see you today?
Then the brother, holding a large packet in my hand, said,
- Here it is, your wedding gift. I was not at the time of marriage. So I gave today.
I took the packet in my hand and said,
- What's in it?
- Your favorite books.
I was overjoyed to hear this. Meanwhile my husband and my mother-in-law came and appeared. They exchanged greetings with the brother. Then my father-in-law said to my husband before going to his house,
-Hasan, tell your mother-in-law. The daughter of this house, the bride does not read all those stories and novels.
I realized, he was indirectly telling me the words. We siblings chuckled. Brother may have understood how I am in this house. Exactly how good I am. He took the books and left. Maybe he will never come home again. My mind was filled with depression.
A few days later, my girlfriend Nandita came to see me. I never thought Nandita would surprise me like this. I forgot my loneliness for a while after getting him. Nandita is now married. Shortly after my marriage, she got married. We talked a lot about married life. Most said that. I just heard. Her husband is very caring towards her. Can't go a moment without him. In a word, he lost his eyesight. I suddenly remembered that boy. Rose used to stand at the bus stop to see me. I once wanted to tell Nandita if she had ever seen the boy standing again. But I could not say. Nandita may have forgotten all that.
Nandita left. After he left, my mother-in-law said,
- Isn't the girl a Hindu?
Seeing the way he spoke, I understood that he did not like to come to Nandita's house. I took a deep breath.
 Because my parents married against my will, I did not go to my father's house for a day after the marriage. But my mind could not stay in this house. So I went to my father's house with everyone's permission. Tears of joy flowed from the eyes of my parents when they saw me. Brother is not at home. He has migrated abroad again. I quietly went to my room. I went home and saw that the books given to me by my brother were neatly arranged on my bookshelf. I touched them with absolute obsession. These books were once my friend, my leisure companion. Suddenly someone put a hand on my head. I just looked, mother. Mom told me,
- How are you mom?
I looked out the window and said,
- I don't know, mother. I feel very lonely at home.
-First of all, all girls are like that. After a while I will see that everything is fine.
- It is forbidden to speak loudly at home, it is forbidden to smile openly. Tell me what can be like this?
My mother explained to me,
-All families have certain rules. As a family member, you have to comply. Only then will the peace of the world be maintained. Besides, your father-in-law's house is now your own house.
I didn't tell my mother anything else. I just said in my mind, 'How can a house that feels lonely in spite of everyone being there become its own mother?
While at my father's house, I realized that I was going to be a mother. Then I thought, I am the happiest person in the world. My mother I don't know how happy my husband and in-laws were when they heard the news. I just know, this time my turn to be alone will end. I said to my unborn child, 'Listen, you will be my lone watchman. I will forget all the loneliness and solitude of life with the fingertips of your little hand. '
One day seemed to pass. And I began to feel a new life slowly growing inside me. I said to myself, just a few more days. Then my loneliness will go away. But one day, I started having severe pain in my abdomen. Delivery is still too late. I lost consciousness in excruciating pain. And when I regained consciousness, I found out that I had given birth to a dead child. I did not believe this. Standing at a distance, my mother was silently shedding tears. I cried and cried, 'O Most Merciful, why did you not save my child in exchange for my life? Without him, I was alone again. '
When I was devastated by the loss of a child. I still haven't found my husband by my side. The distance between us doubled. I felt like I was alone budded near my chin. Maybe I will spend the rest of my life alone like that lonely star in the sky.
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