Seeing Adivan as one of the potters who came to see his cousin, the whole world seemed to stagger in front of his eyes. He was in such a state that his eyes would come out of the hole in amazement. But Adivan is sitting quite naturally in front of everyone. Seeing Ardra, he was extremely surprised to see no change in his mind. Today, after almost three years, Ardra is watching him with her own eyes. The two have never met since their relationship broke down. Today, after so many days, seeing Adivan like this, it is as if the inside of his chest is burning. It is as if Ardar is trying to break the dam of tears that has been stored for so long. So I hurriedly crossed the main door from the drawing room and ran up the stairs to the roof. By then the dam of tears had broken. He sat on the opposite side of the attic room, kneeling with both hands behind the water tank. He started sobbing in a muffled voice. She can't even cry for fear of public shame. If I could scream and cry, maybe the stuffy mind inside would be a little lighter. Tears welled up in his face as he knelt down. Ardra ended their two-and-a-half-year love affair over a trivial matter. A few incidents from a few years ago are floating in my memory.
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When he was newly admitted to Ardra Intermediate, he met Adivan a few days later. On the way back from college, he saw a tall young boy who had a bike accident and fell on the road. Some people were watching the joke, and some people were recording videos of the accident on their mobile phones. He rushed to the spot, called a few people, called a CNG and picked up the injured boy and took him to the hospital. Seeing the boy, all the nurses of the hospital rushed to the spot and started a commotion. Later one can find out whether the boy is the only son of the founder of this hospital. His parents practiced medicine in this hospital.
In the cabin where the boy was kept, he crouched in front of the cabin door and stood for a while to find out his condition. I did not dare to go inside thinking that I do not know. Then he peeked inside and saw a beautiful noble woman feeding the boy juice. This will probably be his mother. Just then the boy's eyes fell on Ardra. The boy calls a nurse and asks what Ardra can't hear. The nurse looked at him and then said something to the boy. The boy smiled. Seeing that smile, for the first time in his life, Ardra's breath comes and the unknown feels good. Suddenly the heart starts to jump. Embarrassed, he hurried out of the house.
While walking on the road for several days, Ardra remembered the boy's words over and over again. Sometimes I would see him staring at me on the side of the road. But he would blow it up thinking it was a hallucination. But one day, Ardra suddenly started to stand in front of his path. In a moment, the blood in his chest trembled. He handed her a note with a smile on his face and said, "I will wait at the pond inside the college tomorrow hoping for an answer." Surprising him, he left without saying anything.
Back home, he threw the college bag and rolled over on the bed with the note in his hand. After opening the note with trembling hands, he noticed a few lines of small letters.
"Will the one who gave me new life be a blessing in my chaotic life !?
This idiot with the responsibility of my whole life
What a blessing !? Will my empty life come to fruition, O sweetheart? "
A rush of fascination seemed to touch Ardra. Turns red with shame. Repeatedly read the lines. The note is also wrapped around the chest while sleeping at night. The next day I woke up in a hurry. Ardra is a little surprised to see her in such a condition. Then he will not go to college today. Maybe he will die in shame if he goes in front of him. Then the day was Friday. Rahar spends the whole day in such instability. Not even a moment of peace. Then he went to college very early in the day. The mind is fidgeting with new feelings. He doesn't want to waste time. He stays at the pond ghat all day from morning. I didn't want to go to class. If he goes back without getting him! At one point, Ardra cried while waiting. He should have come that day. He made a mistake, he made a mistake. She covered her face and kept crying. By then the twilight has set in. The chirping of birds breaks the silence around them. At that moment, the wait for Ardra also ended. He looks at the touch of someone's hand on his head. The two red swollen teary eyes matched and stared at the man in front of her for a few moments. Then without a second's delay he jumped on the chest of the aspiring man. This man is enough to fill his empty life.
The next days are like a dream. Having found Adivan in his lonely life, all imperfections were gone. The day would begin with Adivan's mischievous words; And the day would end with his love mixed discipline. But not in words, happy days are over very quickly! Similarly, Ardra's happy day was over when Adivan's mother saw the two of them together. He said to Ardra, 'Come home with Adivan one day.' Adivan laughed at his inner fear and said, 'My happiness is his happiness. Mom will accept you too. ' But unknown worries did not leave Ardra behind. Rather, she lay with him like a shadow.
Ardra can't express her feelings that day. Ardra enters the big AC room behind Adivan with one book of hope and the same amount of fear. OK, Adivan left the room with his mother. Before leaving, he reassures Ardra so that he will not be afraid. But seeing the cold eyes of Adivan's mother, the fear increased many times instead of decreasing. His first sentence was for Ardra
--- "Would you explain a little how you hung my naive boy in your fire?"
Hearing that, Ardra became speechless in surprise. He started telling her to surprise him a little more
--- "If you dream of a million rupees lying on a torn kantha. How do you think that I will make a girl like you my son's wife !? What is the qualification to stand next to my son? There are no parents. There is no genealogy, and there is no wealth. My son has fallen in love with you without realizing it. But when you see a rich man's son hanging around his neck like a greedy girl! Didn't you have such a sense that the relationship has to be equal! "
The words pierced Ardra's chest like a shell. The skin of the body seemed to be falling off in such an insult. At the end of such an ugly conversation for a while, Ardra said just that before coming up
--- "Money, money is all in life !? What is love, but there is no place in human life? Is human happiness hidden only in money? But if money is all human, then your son is also the daughter of a rich, wealthy king "Even if he is not happy, I hope your desires will be fulfilled. But remember, this money will one day be your tomorrow. I can guarantee that even if you can buy everything with money, you will not be able to buy your son's happiness." Don't even look at the boy's trinity. Keep the boy tied to the hem. It can't be said if I fall into greed again! "
Ardra surprised Adivan's mother and left the hospital without giving her a chance to say anything. Adivan was confronted as soon as he came out. Seeing his smiling face, the inside of his chest was breaking. Maybe the dream of living together with this man in this life will not be fulfilled. Ardra ended their two-and-a-half-year relationship on the side of the road that day. Despite much insistence, he did not tell the truth. Adivan couldn't help but cry on the street that day at the sudden decision of Ardra. Yet Ardra's mind did not melt at all. In his own decision, he returned Adivan from Atal. But Bidhata knows what tornado was blowing inside him to disappoint Adivan!
Fearing to fall in front of Adivan, he left his aunt's house and went to his uncle's house. But the memories of Adivan did not leave him behind. The days were passing in unbearable pain; But Ardra could not forget him even for a moment. His companion for so long was silent crying. And today, after so many days, I never imagined that I would have to face the past again. Will the man of his love finally marry his sister! He can bear to see the two together in front of his eyes!
Suddenly the sound of someone's words came to Ardra's ears. Trying to hear with his ears pricked up. Adivan and his cousin Survi are laughing and talking as if they are talking about something. The fire is gradually burning inside the chest. Burning terribly. How can he get rid of it!
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The potter or Survi has been quite liked. So on the same day he went to talk about marriage. Fifteen days later the date of the wedding day has been fixed. The wedding is in full swing at home. Relatives have also started coming. Everyone is quite happy. But there is no peace. After hearing this, he was completely confused. Spend the whole day in a closed room. Surbhi called to accompany him. But no satisfactory answer was received from Ardra. When he comes to sleep after eating at night, the sparkle of Survi's words feels like poison in Ardra's ears. Lately, even Survi's smile is not tolerated by Ardra.
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One day Ardra saw a very attractive design wedding card on the dressing table. He also wanted to make a card of such a gorgeous design during his wedding. But everyone's wishes are fulfilled! With a sigh, he opened the card and looked at it lazily. The first thing that comes to mind is the name of the groom. Seeing Adivan's name there, his eyes widened. Chest burns begin. Although Survi is his cousin sister, he can't stand seeing her name next to Adivan. So just after seeing Adivan's name, he tore the card into three or four pieces and threw it in a corner of the room. Tears welled up in his eyes. Frightened by someone's footsteps outside, he quickly entered the washroom. She sat on the floor with her back against the wall and cried. This is probably what was written in his destiny. That is why I have to shed tears like this today. Now it seems that it would have been better not to have met Adivan that day. At least day after day, the invisible flame of separation did not have to burn.
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Ardra was standing in the dark. At that time, the net of darkness was spreading everywhere saying goodbye to the evening. He was staring at the yellow light of the lamppost. At the same time there is a shower of eyes. Ardra suddenly came to his senses after being hit on the head. Quickly wiping his eyes with his hand and looking back, Survi is looking at him with frowning eyes. Seeing Ardra not saying anything, Survi slapped him again
--- "I have never seen such a lowly vombal like you. Auntie was not such a donkey as you. So what do you do? And what do you say to Lucas from me? If I had not read your diary, I would never have known the truth; And I couldn't solve it. Then I would have had to shed tears like this for the rest of my life. "
Ardra doesn't understand anything about Survi's words. Where did you get the fragrance of his diary !? Surely everything has fallen! Do not misunderstand him in any way! Explain the whole thing to Survi He said it again before
--- "Well, one thing was said, did you tear the wedding card; or not?"
Ardra tried to pretend not to hear it
--- "Don't listen, I'm actually ... Adivan ...."
Ardra is stopped in the middle and called Surbhi
--- "I don't really have to come up with a copy. I have to understand who needs to be understood."
Ardra was stunned to see Adivan at the door of the balcony without saying a word. Squeezing his eyes on Adivan and saying 'Dulabhai owed the treat', Surbhi left. And Ardra is standing with her head down. It is not clear where the incident is taking place. An inch away, Adivan's warm breath began to burn Ardra's eyes. Hands and feet trembled and the speed of breathing gradually became heavier. It seems that the body is getting cold and numb like ice. He broke his knee and sat down on the floor. Adivan was startled and sat facing Ardra and lifted his face in the palm of his hand. Then he softly ordered
--- "Look into my eyes."
Ardra keeps her eyes on Adivan like a hypnotist. Adivan begins to speak
--- "Why didn't you tell the truth that day? You don't know how stupid I was without you !? So how could you leave me alone in the middle of the road like this? Were his words more important to you than my love? Hey, he is My honest mother, how can she understand if I am good or not ?! If she were my own mother, she would know exactly what I want, what would make me happy! But you don't understand me either !? Lost on purpose, not caught, how can people find him? My empty life was being filled with you. Why did you give up that day, why? "
At the last moment, Adivan restrained his forehead and said the words with trembling eyes. Ardra can't say anything. Silently hearing Adivan's allegations, he breathed his last.